I'm About Ready to Scream.

Ok, it was bound to happen, this is going to be a whiny post.

The waiting is getting oppressive. In fact, it's starting to affect my daily life. We got confirmation of our application being in the right queue on the 27th of June but we got not further feed back from there.

It starts simply enough, when you start to realize that there are significant deadlines that are coming up, whether or not you have your Visa, that you can't get around. We need to move all our stuff to Kingston the second week of August. We need to be out of the house by August 28th. Those aren't negotiable.

Then there's all the stuff that depends on the "acceptance" date. Like buying the tickets, finding homes for the cats, getting rid of the car, figuring out what to do about my job, arranging the movers, getting our finances sorted... the list goes on and on. And none of it can be done without knowing the state of the Visa.

And then of course, doubt starts to creep in. There's a few technicalities in our application that may or may not be an issue, but when you start obsessing over them, the become HUGE in your mind. you start making backup plans, looking at the money you've saved and wondering how long it would last if you completely homeless and jobless in a new country.

Your mood goes down hill, you start to lose sleep. Nothing seems to be going anywhere with the direction of life, so nothing seems to matter. Tempers flair.

... It's only been 21 days. The website says this can take up to 4 months, though we were told via email that it's more likely to be 4-6 weeks. Either way, we just hit the 3 week mark and i'm going nuts.

Good thing Carly's a patient soul.